Normalcy

Part 2

 

A bit soon to talk about normalcy, should of thought about it a bit longer, but I think I've come to some normal ground of my own normalcy.

 

Normalcy for me, personally, is solidity, stability, being grounded, being whole and just allowing myself to be me, no matter the consequences. 

 

For instance, I have three children.  I love them all dearly.  Each one has different lifestyles and have made their own choices on how to live their life.  I have honored those things and stepped outside that and tried very hard to stay out of those decisions. 

 

The first two, love and accept me for who I am deep inside.  Not the exterior part that might flair up or mess up.  They love me because I am there mother, plain and simple.  They know I've made mistakes, especially the oldest, but she recognizes that you do the best you can with what you have at the time.  That is a mature adult thinking mentality.  She honors me in other ways, in simple handmade items she takes years to make that are so priceless they take my breath away.  She is thoughtful and a delight to be around.

 

My son honors me, loves me and will take care of me to my death.  He will not let anything bad happen to me and I know I can go to him when in trouble.  He is good to me, as is my first born.  He loves me deeply and wishes he could do more for me. 

 

My third child is a different story.  She is the rebel in the family, she goes and does her own thing, which is good, it's freedom of speech and all that stuff.  She's defining herself and finding her place in the world.  She has a beautiful young daughter who I miss beyond belief.  It's been 3 years since I've heard from her and oh how I wish I could be granted just one wish to hear from her again.  To see Sophie and to kiss my sweet daughters face.  To hug her and tell her I'm sorry for the past, but also to remind her that the past is gone and we must look forward to the future.

 

Have my children found there normalcy?  I don't know.  I think my son has.  He is successful, happy, a proud and honorable Marine.  He is a superb father to Emma and a good son.

 

My oldest daughter, is I believe has also found her normalcy.  She is very grounded in her life, but might have a few unanswered questions lurking in the back of her mind.  She never stops moving, also does something and she amazes me with her determination to learn new things to improve her skills.  Right now she is into woodworking, before that it was electrical engineering and then she completely tiled her entire kitchen and backsplash.  They live in an 100 year old home and she adores it to death.  She is beautiful and I've never seen her so happy then the day she married her sweetheart.

 

My normalcy, you ask.  I take a lot of medication for my Bi-Polar and I usually have a rough morning with the wearing off period of those medications.  We are working on getting off of some of them, because I am doing very well emotionally and we don't feel I don't need so many drugs anymore.  Very good and exciting news.  I'm stable, contributing member of society, work hard at my business, let me plug it fireflyscrafts.blogspot.com 

I live each day as if it's my last and strive to do good to everyone I come in contact with.  I'm a good person, solid, grounded and that is my normalcy.

I am Debbie and I was here.